A Penny For Your Thoughts?

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Edited by: Gianne Andrea H. Garcia 

My Thoughts 

According to the Merriam-Webster, Happiness is a state of well-being and contentment (joy). But for me, happiness is based on people, things, places, thoughts, and events. It’s there but the next thing you know, the feeling’s gone. If I were to choose between Joy and Happiness, I would definitely choose Joy, because Joy is there when you make peace with who you are, what you are and why you are. It is more consistent than Happiness. But don’t get me wrong, Joy and Happiness are both wonderful feelings to experience.

            In everything that you do, there are things that you need to learn. And for this poem, the lessons that I need to learn which are: thou shall not compare myself to others, to have faith in myself, thou shall not surrender, always be contented, and lastly choose to be happy.

Honestly, I don’t want to compare myself to anyone but sometimes, I can’t avoid that, darkness takes over and the light’s nowhere to be seen. I always compare myself to others especially in singing, because I know that I will never be as good as them and there are also times that I feel like in whatever I do, for them, they are not satisfied or it will never be enough even though I put extra efforts on it and that’s the reason why I’ve lost interest in everything that I do. And since I want to learn to stop comparing myself to anyone, in order for me to do this, I need to have faith in myself. When I was a kid, my faith in myself was strong but as I grew up, it weakens and now, it’s gone. Losing faith in myself is one of the reasons why I overthink in everything that I do. I want to gain back the faith that I have for myself. I don’t want to be the girl who believes every negative statement that every person says about me, I don’t want to experience the feeling of doubt and cry myself to sleep ever again. Everyone keeps on saying: “Do not surrender.” or “Hold on.” and more, but how exactly do you guys do that? Are there any ways or steps in order to achieve this one? Because I want to learn how. I don’t want to be weak, I want to be sturdy, not just physically but emotionally and spiritually as well. Next, I consider myself as someone who wants the things that she doesn’t have, I always want things more. For me its’s actually a good thing because it gives you motivation to do more but sometimes it gets toxic and everyone around me gets affected. And it sucks because I can’t appreciate or to be grateful for the things that I have right now and maybe I only appreciate these things when they are gone (but I hope that I won’t reach to that point). I am a sensitive person, every little thing affects my mood, my emotions, and probably my day. I’m the type of person who is very transparent to her feelings, when I am sad, I am sad, when I am happy, I am happy, or in other words, my face says it all because I do not want to be fake but the negative side of this is that I can’t enjoy the things that are happening, everyone keeps on telling me that no matter happens, always smile and choose to be happy and that’s the reason why I want to learn this one (choose to be happy) because I do not know how.

After reading the poem, it motivates me to do better or to strive more in things that I do in my daily life because it gave me some realizations, it opens my mind and it gave me some thinking on about my life. Hopefully, the things that I realized which are in need to be resolve will be resolve slowly.

Therefore, I conclude that every each of us has its own meaning of happiness. Everything that I do, everything that I did, the lessons will always be there. Just like reading this poem, it gave me some realizations, it gave some thinking and thoughts to ponder.

"Be happy in the moment, that’s enough. Each moment is all we need, not more."

- Mother Teresa